right said red

i am obsessed with red lipstick.

obsessed.

today alone i bought 3 - one new one and 2 backups because revlon is 40% off at walgreens and they have a fabulous matte lipstick line. i'm on the hunt for another one, too - besame cosmetics has some fabulous lipsticks that are inspired by the red lipsticks of the golden era - 30s, 40s and 50s. they are gorgeous! and julie hewett also has some vintage-inspired lip colors that look pretty authentic. not sure if mail ordering lipstick in texas is the best idea so mac's russian red, viva glam 1, and my new palette of revlon reds will have to do until i can get my hot little hands on the others.

so why red when all i've been wanting to do is blend in to the sheetrock?
because i feel like a girl again. i care about what i eat, i care about my health, i care about my looks and how people see me and i was not born to blend in. anyone who knows me knows i was born to stand out...to be noticed...to stand apart...and i've been living in the shadows way too long.

red lipstick alone won't help me stand apart, though...i cannot imagine how...retarded i would look with my uncolored hair pulled back in a sloppy ponytail, no make-up apart from the red lips, oversized sloppy t-shirt, loose capri pants and dirty orange crocs? yeah. i'm gonna pass.
i also bought some red nail polish and false eyelashes and even new shoes and clothes! yup - i'm making myself over. last weekend, laura took the hedgeclippers to my greek eyebrows and mom gave me 2 mary kay lipliners and an oil-free moisturizer to help my dried out skin. next week we go back to the gym because eating right isn't the only thing i need to do to look good. i love the iconic style of the 40s and 50s but the clothes don't look good on you if you weigh 359 lbs so after the surgery and a decent amount of lost weight, i'm diving into retro-land. my hair is already naturally wavy so i don't have to mess with that but i do need to learn how to pin it up in victory rolls and so forth but one step at a time. i need to learn the eyelashes first. i won't post any pictures until i've lost some more weight, but i will do it.
have a good night,
margo