8-24-10

today i went back to work. shit. i should have stayed home. the front door wouldn't lock so don stayed home and waited for maintenance. then, the asm failed to show up and called in at 7:45 and the keymasters would not answer their phones or texts. we were outside waiting until 10:45 so i wasted 3 hours on this girl and things just got worse from that point on. i got inside and found that the hotel we booked for next month's meeting SOLD ALL OF OUR ROOMS! she tried to say that earlier this month she didn't have enough but i reminded her that i blocked those rooms in may. it's useless to fight with her about it because it's not going to get us our rooms back.

i guess the stress was too much for me because shortly thereafter i got sick. nauseated, hot and cold at the same time, exhausted, weak and a little dizzy. the idea of the protein shakes nauseates me now...i'm sick of chocolate. now, before you go off about the wonders of chocolate, let me explain that i have never been a big fan of sweets. this fat suit is primarily comprised of fountain cokes, cans of dr pepper, fast food, pizza, pasta, biscuits, tortillas, dinner rolls and chips & dips. i crave salt. i do not crave sugar. so all of these damned protein shakes that are supposed to taste like ice cream are just nauseating to me. just because i'm fat does not mean i crave sugar! i need a protein shake that tastes like jim's canadian cheese soup or la madelene tomato soup or something. a pizza flavored shake wouldn't work...too vomity...mac & cheese? buttered biscuit...something savory. ah well...i can dream...

i found a powdered protein mix flavored like alpine punch. i mix it in water or juice or s/f lemonade and that's it! no more chocolate! and just in time for phase 2 of my liquid diet. tomorrow i can have cream of wheat, grits, thicker soups...i'm so excited about the cream of wheat!!!

hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...
wish me luck!

oh and today i had 1 protein shake, 1 s/f jello, 1 cup of broth and 6oz of cheese soup mixed with beef broth. oh and half of an isopure zero carb green tea (40g of protein but i had onl 20g - papa finished the rest). tomorrow is CREAM OF WHEAT! Hello DINERS!!!