Fat Girls Don't Wrinkle

today i have a headache. and everything is getting on my nerves. tygrrr lilly is beyond our control and irritating the shit out of the other 2 babies. she's so hyper and out of control she hit her head on the coffee table when she tried to jump on the sofa. did it slow her down? no. did she cry from the pain? no. i did but she didn't. she just tolerated extra hugs and kisses from mommy and then squirmed to get to daisy for more torture. she is so hyper when she runs across the floor, sparks shoot out of her toes. the lights even flicker! she can degauss the tv and laptops by just walking by them. help me.

got a text from jack today; amy was medically approved for her gastrick bypass so she goes under the knife in 5 weeks provided she can lose 10 lbs and quit smoking today. i am so glad i quit smoking when i got e.coli - trying to quit sucks! i think that's probably why i went so stir crazy when i was in the hospital. not even morphine did anything to calm me down.

a friend of mine who hasn't seen me in about a hundred lbs told me i was beautiful. that totally made my year! i don't know any woman that would ever not appreciate being told she is beautiful. my mom and sister and hector tell me that all the time but it's different when it comes from them - it's almost like it's their job to say that.

tomorrow i'm going back to the nix hospital to be hector's date for his lap band seminar. he's worried because his insurance will only pay if the procedure is medically necessary. if you're 100 lbs overweight it's usually medically necessary. i started thinking about what i might look like without all of this extra *me* sitting around...i don't think i'll ever be thin - i'm pretty sure of it. i think i'll be curvy no matter what. even when i was a size 16 i still had this rack...jack said don's gonna have to fight them off with a stick! we'll see. i'm 40 now so there will be some...um...sun damage around the eyes that gets hidden when one is chubby. :) ask paula deen - fat girls don't wrinkle! she's right!

i'm off to dreamland...
pax,
margo